Old News

I have not posted in a while but I had a busy weekend/week visiting my family back in my home town. That was the first time I had been so busy when I went back home. I did not even have a chance to see the main guy I talk to.

Friday night I had the opportunity to see a guy from my past name Chris. We recently reconnected after about 5 years. When my cousin first gave me his phone, I was so excited. I felt like I was in high school all over again. I started reflecting on how great our short fling was when we talked back in high school.

Before Chris pulled up next to me in his car, I knew the roles had been switched on how we felt about each other from the conversations we had been having over the last three weeks. He was overly excited to see me and wanted to do nothing but talk to me all night long. However, the topics we discussed on the phone were boring to me and he was unable to hold my interest. I think part of it was because I have continued my education while he has just continued to kick it in the hood. Therefore, he could not talk about my major with me nor could we exchange crazy stories about our college experiences or future career plans after graduation.

I tried to be open-minded about seeing him. I really wanted to be emotional attached to him again. But, the feelings were gone. He was still the same guy but I had changed. The same things I loved before about him, now irritated me. He was to silly and arrogant. Plus, I could not get over the way he treated me in high school. He decided to date another girl because I was a virgin and my parents were sick.

It was nice seeing him again so I could move on and stop comparing and wishing every guy I talk to now was him. I am in a different stage on my life right now and Chris is just old news. As I grow, I am figuring out that my interest will change in a lot of things including my the characteristics I want my potential love interests to have.